I found this quote at Valerie's blog and thought it was so amazing it was worth repeating:
“It is not the usual purpose of prayer to serve us like Aladdin’s lamp, to bring us ease without effort. Prayer is not a matter of asking only. Often the purpose of prayer is to give us strength to do what needs to be done, wisdom to see the way to solve our own problems, and the ability to do our best in our tasks.”
Elder Richard L. Evans, The Man and the Message, [Salt Lake City: Bookcraft, 1973], 289
“May we never let the things we can't have, or don't have, or shouldn't have, spoil our enjoyment of the things we do have and can have. As we value our happiness let us not forget it, for one of the greatest lessons in life is learning to be happy without the things we cannot or should not have.”
Elder Richard L. Evans
Andy is going to Primary Children's Hospital this friday. Please pray for him and us that we will receive goods news. I'll be honest... I'm pretty tired of wearing a smile and pretending this doesn't hurt like hell. I just don't want to deal with this- period. Sometimes I feel like people don't really understand how much pain I have been through over this topic, and if truth be told I hope they never do understand how I feel because the only way to understand is to experience it yourself. I don't really think even my husband or parents know the depths of sadness I've felt at times. Not because they don't care but because it's hard for me to put it in words. Sometimes when I look at my husband I know he knows because he feels it too. I'm not looking for sympathy or replies or emails, I just need to vent, get this out on to my blog so it's not stuck inside of me. One thing this has brought to my life; a greater appreciation for Our Saviour. He knows my pain because he's felt it. While Andy spent some time in the NICU I couldn't always be there so I taped a little picture of Jesus (who was smiling) in his crib because I knew he would feel comforted. Now I just need to look at that little picure myself, the same exact one that was in his crib and know that things will be okay because ultimately God is taking care of my son.
Andy would also like to point out to everyone that as he was turning one his great-grandpa was turning 81! Happy Birthday Popsie! Andy loves being Birthday buddies with you!!!
Matthew and I are so happy to announce that on February 7, 2009 we were sealed for time and all eternity as a family in the Salt Lake Temple. We 'eloped' and invited only our witnesses and escorts. Because some very dear and important family members to us could not make it we decided that for our own sake it would be easier this way. We appreciate your understanding and love as you support us in this momentous decision we made. Going to the temple had always been our dream and we have been on cloud 9 ever since. The cherry on the icing was to have our beautiful son present, he looked just like a little angel. We are so blessed in so many ways and we always want to acknowledge our Father in Heaven whom we owe everything to. We could not have had a better day, and just in case you didn't know- it was also Andrew's 1st birthday! This will always be a day that will live in our memories.
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